WALKING

well, the most wonderful thing happened today, i walked without my crutches.

i had a good night sleep, did my Chi Gong meditation/visualization when i woke up. you know when you wake up but not quite ready to get out of bed, well i use that time to do my meditation, it energizes me.
i start with deep breading to build the Chi. i'm getting very good at it, and can feel it move up and down my body. i recommend it highly, perhaps i was very fortunate and had a good teacher. it really works.

my legs felt a little stiff, hard work going to the bathroom and brushing my teeth, just the usual.
got to Hippocrates, had to do my blood test. You do a blood test on week 1, then on week 3 to see how you have progressed. i will get the results tomorrow. so excited to see it.

i went to gym, but first i had my morning wheatgrass juice. i'm getting used to the taste now, much easier to drink.
normal routine, cycling and stretching, took it easy as i've had a bit of pain in my legs the last few days.

then i had H-Wave, but they have just brought this new machine which works on a slightly different electrical frequency, it's something to do with bio-magnetic electric resonance. so it tunes in to your body electric energy (know as Chi in chinese medicine). it manipulates or energizes your cells so reduces pain and increase rejuvenation/ healing. i can feel it working on me. it feels very similar to when i do my meditation and Chi build up. i'm finding a bit wiered how i'm starting to feel these different energies so easily. the power of the mind is incredible, we just don't use it. we just don't know our bodies, we just treat our bodies as a 3rd party machine. this experience is teaching me so much about my body. why shouldn't i be able to feel the different parts of it. it's just a matter of learning, don't you agree? and we seem totally ignorant about it. it's not our fault, it's just lack of education or we are simply diverted to other ways of life, drinking and partying. I was the prime example of it.

this followed by a lecture on Sprouting. it's so easy, you can make Sprouts in a 3 days. the most powerful food on the planet earth for less than a few pounds, you will have a week's supply. no wonder they don't advertise it!

i had Oxygen therapy after, filling up my body with some delicious oxygen, could visualize the cancer cells running scared, suffocating to their death.

then lunch with Nancy and Gus. Nancy is Parker's mum. it was lovely to see her. we didn't really have enough time, but it was so nice, gorgeous lady and seemed so happy with Gus. wish we had more time to talk, but lectures and healing were calling.

we had a lecture on Conscious Communication. he recommended some books, i will post a full list of books soon. also talked, talked about his experiences in life, how we should live life the way we see fit, we should talk and air our thoughts, we should speak our mind and don't bottle things up, we should not judge or try and predict reactions before we communicate, we should learn to listen, not planning our answer when the other person is taking, we should have an open mind. a lot of common sense, it was good to hear it all, a nice reminder.

at 4, i had a massage called Diversified Touch Therapy. this guy called Vincent did a lecture on body posture and how different events in our lives or sometimes just one event in our life will effect the way we walk, or our posture forever. it's muscle memories, an accident, fear, shock, sadness, illness, anything that could effect us physically or emotionally can effect us. this is caused by emotions stored in muscles and our nerves. he explains it as an integration of several disciplines designed to restore harmony and balance to the Mind - Body - Spirit of an individual.

when i heard his lecture. i thought this could be for me. i don't want to be walking funny for the rest of my life once this is over. so i booked myself in straight away.
he had remembered me from the lecture as i asked a few questions and told him i was going to see him.
soon as i walked in the room, he said i have been thinking about you all week and what we gona do.
so lie head down and started to work on my back. he said this is where the problem is coming from, i have a tight chest and rib cage etc. he touched a couple of sore spots and straight away he softened his massage. i was surprised and told him about Frank, and how wonderful it was and he really opened my body etc. He said he has a very different technique and his approach is more subtle. OK, i had a little doubt, but as i've learnt in the last few weeks, have an open mind and believe. so he gets to work on my back, rib cage, arms, then legs, softly softly very gentle, subtle and precise. i started to feel immediately my body opening up, i was breathing easier, my back much more relaxed, my legs more alive, the session was 1 1/2 hours, but he worked on me for 2 hours and gave me some stretching exercise to do in the evenings and mornings. we had a beautiful conversation all the way through, he is in his 70, very gentle guy.

i got dressed, got my crutches heading towards the pool for a little exercise and soaking before dinner. as i started to walk out of his room on my crutches, i had this energy sensation in my legs, they felt much stronger, i had more control of them, they wanted to stand on their own and walk. so i lifted my crutches and started to take a few steps, i was walking without my crutches. i could not believe it. i had been waiting for this moment for so long, i knew it was going to happen sooner or later, and i was just waiting for it. i wasn't sure what i was going to do, where i would be when this would happen, and it was happening. i shouted Vincent look i'm walking. i wanted to go back to the room and show him, but he looked out of the window and was so pleased, he shouted becareful, go easy. i wanted to go back and hug him again, but i was also in a rush to go show everyone i was walking.

i rushed to the therapy room, and walked in without my crutches, everyone was so pleased. they had all been waiting for the moment. i went straight to the pool, bumped into more people, i started to show off and walk without the help of the crutches. everyone was clapping and coming over giving me a hug. i walked around in the pool for 30 minutes, so happy, i had the biggest smile on my face ever, punching the air every so often. i'm healing and it's so great. i'm buzzing as i'm writing.

after pool went for dinner, had a little catwalk for everyone, people just couldn't believe it, so happy for me.
at around 8, they had live music, Dr Brian, the director here plays the drums, and he is very good. so walked over to him and thank him for saving my life. of course he said he's done nothing, it's all me. he gave me a massive hug. he was not surprised at all, he sees this all the time. his wife, Dr Anne Marie who is the co director and my doctor here was so pleased to see me on the dance floor. she then got her Violin out and joined the band. this family is just so talented and clever. and they are doing the most wonderful thing in life you can imagine, saving people's lives and giving them hope to live. they are doing a pretty good job if you ask me.

i had a 20 min booggy on the dance floor. all the ladies wanted a dance with me. i was moving and grooving in a very particular style. i was so happy, i'm standing on my feet, i'm moving around without crutches. i'm healing.

i couldn't wait to get to my computer and tell everyone about it.
What a day, it would be like seeing your kid take his fist steps.
the question of will i ever walk again has now been answered.
when i asked my radiotherapist doctor in London, will i walk again. he said, you have much bigger problems than that, but you should recover some feelings in the next 6 to 8 weeks. well i'm walking and dancing. i'm pretty sure my cancer is in regression too. i feel it, and i've learnt to trust my feelings.

to life force
what a day, Tuesday 15th of April, 08
all my love
reza

to Life Force and living food.
thank you Vincent.
love
reza