Thursday 10th April

Another great day. i had a lot more feeling in my legs this morning. i could move them a bit easier, less pain. so that put a big smile on my face when i got up. 

started the day with 15min cycling and 5 minutes steps machine. that was hard work. 30 minutes stretching, breakfast and then i had 1 of hour H-Wave. they wire you up to these radio amplifier looking type machines sending electric pulses to your muscles. you lying on the bed and your legs are jumping up and down. very strange feeling. it's for pain control, but also helps rejuvenate nerves and muscle activity. normally a session is 20 minutes, but the person after me didn't turn up, so i had an hour! it really helped, i can feel the bottom of my feet now, and easier to move my toes. 

i went for a sauna and swim, pool exercises then lunch followed by a lecture on Cell Food Supplement. Now you should all get on the internet and order this supplement. it was developed by the guy who helped Einstein split the water molecule to build the Atomic bomb. later he developed cancer and healed himself by developing a product which used the same principle as splitting the water molecule. Cancer cells develop in low oxygen environments, feeding off sugar and living in acidic conditions. Cell Food it's the most powerful oxygen carrier to the body, it has 13 Enzymes and 50 something of the 73 amino acids the body needs. just look it up and get it. it's not that expensive, 20 a bottle and lasts for 40 days. highly recommended.  very good lecture. 

then i had Infra Red oxygen therapy for an hour, i totally fell asleep and didn't want to get up. it's great when you have a power nap in the afternoon. 

then had a cooking class, so many delicious recipes, i can't wait to move to Ibiza and set up my new kitchen with all new equipments. this food is so delicious, once your taste buds change, you de-hook yourself of cooked or processed lifeless food, you actually realize how delicious vegetables are when they are RAW, the pure taste.  

we had dinner and i came home. 

just had a bath and did some Qi Gong meditation lying in my bed. i feel amazing. again i recommend meditation to anyone who has not tried it. when i look back, Reza doing meditation!!!! but it's one of the most amazing relaxation tools ever. as i was meditating i could hear my organs working, like a brand new factory. i could hear my stomach ticking, ti ti ti ti ti ti ti it ti, my liver, i had never felt my liver before, i can now feel it pumping. my lungs feel like a field of white lilies blowing in mild wind every time i breath. my heart is singing away tick tick, tick tick, tick tick, happy as Larry. my skin feels so fresh, breathing away on its own tingling in joy. i don't think i have ever felt like this in my life before. it's a beautiful feeling. i feel blessed.

Suddenly i remembered how sick i was when we were back in London. i was completely bed ridden. i could hardly walk to the toilet and back, and that felt like a meeting with the devil. i could not feel my feet. you know when you go skying and it's freezing cold, your feet feel frozen, well i had that feeling constantly in my feet, the rest of my legs felt dead. you know when you sit on your leg or arm for too long and it goes dead, then you try and move it and it's painful. just like that. then anything i could feel was like pins and needles. from chest down. it was so weird. OK i had spinal cord compression, 7 sessions of heavy radiotherapy! i was on 4 different pain killers, steroids, 2 different anti sickness tablets and a load of constipation pills. i was ill. 

London was cold and grey, i was stuck in my flat, striped of all emotions, my identity, sense of belonging, confused as it all happened so quickly within a few days, i lost 10 kilos! so skinny, i was facing the hardest and toughest challenge of life, staying alive. but it was never a feeling of despair, it felt more like a challenge, question time, what happens now, what am i supposed to do here. who am i? what am i? this is not the end of the road, surly not now? i can honestly say it was one of the loneliest times of my life, but i suppose it is only in such loneliness that one can truly find himself. THE WOUNDED HEALER. it's not lonely like you don't have anyone to talk to, or to love. it's lonely as it's your own challenge, no one can help. you know it's only you that can and has to do it, it's only you, you, you, you. 

Veronica was amazing, truly an angel to guide and care for me and my brother was the pillow of support, impossible is nothing. Right Moh? 

Monday 24th of March, Easter Bank Holiday, I met Dr Clement when he did his lecture on Living Food and Wheatgrass in London, and he showed me the path. The odds of him being there that weekend! He comes to UK maybe once a year!!!!

I feel blessed to be here, i feel i'm healing, i see the cancer cells dying by 10s of thousands every hour. if my memory serves me right, every person produces approx 2500 cancerous cells everyday. our immune system gets rid of them on a daily basis. you have to have 50 million cancer cells before they can see it on scan. i have a good 2 to 3 years ahead of me before i am totally cancer free. easy. consider it done. 

i'm so looking forward to my new life. it has started already, but there is so much i like to add to it. 

this blog was another great idea. thank you Veronica. i was so worried i was getting away from all my friends, i thought i would have to start a brand new life. but by doing this blog and sharing all my thoughts with everyone, i feel closer, more loved and in tune with my family and friends. it goes to show how you can turn the most daunting of circumstances to a blessing. How life can be beautiful, life is what you make it. don't let it decide for you, this is what the western living is doing, it's deciding life for us. i won't go into this today, but think about it. 

Finally i like to say how much i enjoy reading everyone's comments. everyone that writes on here gives me a boost of energy, and puts a massive smile on my face. sorry if i don't reply to each person individually, it's just a question of time. this weekend i will have more time, but i like to tell everyone about what we are learning, some really great information and things you can all start doing. but i will reply to everyone in due time. 

a lot of people have asked me if they can show this blog to their friends, please go ahead tell as many people as possible. if this blog helps just one person heal themselves, how great would that be? imagine the goodness of this act. so the more people know about it, the better. 

for everyone that knows me well, imagine me at my happiest, most excited, most energetic, most inspired and smiling, that's how i feel. 

to all of you and life force

so much love and positive energy

reza