it was a good morning this morning. i woke up feeling very positive about my decision, for sure i had at least 10% more energy. i had a big smile on my face and so looking forward to our trip to Florida.
the alternative was to get up at 8.30, head to the hospital to have a PICC line put in. this is a line they put in through your elbow and it goes all the way to your heart. reason is that the small veins can't handle the chemotherapy drug and they will blow up. NICE. that sounds like a helpful drug!
so after that i would have to have an xray to make sure the line has been put in correctly. i would then get connected to a little box, and over the next 24 hours, i will be dinning on a beautiful cocktail of pharmaceutical potion, killing every single living and growing cell in my body. the aim is to hopefully kill more of the cancer, but there is no proof to that. it's a hope.
right now, i would be sitting/lying down in my bed, sofa semi dead. sounds good doesn't it! well i'm glad i did not go through with it. been there, done it 6 months ago. no thanks.
but instead, i'm feeling alive and in good spirit. in fact we are on our way to our first RAW food restaurant. Jade found one in London today, we are late and rushing.
we are going to celebrate my decision with Moh, my brother , his wife Jade, Veronica my girlfriend.
after this i will not see my brother for just over 3 weeks, he is as you can imagine concerned and slightly stressing that i might forget to take my tablets or leave something behind. he is making a big list for me to tick off, checking all traffic information to the airport and making a phone call to Bin Ladden to stay out of airports for Saturday.
i spend most the day inviting some close friends to this blog, so i hope i start getting some cool funny and inspiring messages.
i also spoke about my decision with my dad. this must be a very difficult time for my dad, but he understands my decision and believes in me to do the right thing. everyone has been very supportive and for sure i carry this energy with me.
i am very excited, and very much looking forward to Sat and to life.
to LIFE FORCE
Reza
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I just read out you're Blog to my small family. The message is 'GO REZA - CMON. WE BELIEVE IN YOU'.
I have seen you in hospital and I have seen what you have gone through. This is not the path for you. Florida & Hippocrates Institute is you're path and I am so happy you have found the way.
Keep us updated on you're adventure. We need to know so we can channel our energy to you. You are doing yourself and us all very proud Rez. Now go on... Get out there and get better.
Park x
Oops! Reza Jaan,
I mistakingly posted a message to your "Life Force Day 1" instead of "Day 2".
If you don't mind, check that day so you'll see what I wrote. Thanks.
Love,
Your Not-So-Savvy-With-Technology
Cousin Nadereh
P.S. I promise I'll try to get it right from here on!
Reza,
I'm sick and tired of running rings around Parker, Luke and the rest on the astroturf.
Get back to Turnham Green pronto so I can have a proper game.
Simon (slow, lanky, hapless) Chase
"Life Force" a new beginning.
For sure this is the right path Reza, and I send with you to Florida all my love, thoughts and energy.
'go boy go'
Safe journey.
Frances x
Thanks to Moh, Jade and Veronica for the love and care and to everyone else that will follow you along this journey with positive energy and lots of love. You are going to do this. Then you are going to do lots more. XO
Brave is he who dares to venture.
Courageous is he who dares to be brave with passion and inspiration.
Inspirational is he who makes you open your eyes and see.
You are brave, courageous & an inspiration to everyone who knows you.
Thus you will conquer and let all those before you see.
Love you Bro x
Hi everyone, can you believe it, sky broadband cut me off today for no reason. Well, do they think I'm not coming back or something! Are they mad!?
So I have been without internet and not able to update my blog. But just now I discovered I can post a comment with my blackberry, so here it goes.
I'm so pleased I started this blog, I'm really enjoying it and love reading everyone's thoughts and wishes. Such a good idea.
I'm feeling super positive, so excited about the trip, 100% I'm making the right decision.
I'm packed, my friend Parker is here, he is driving us to the airport tomorrow. Veronica is making tons of delicious snacks for the plane journey, and preparing a salad. Hopefully we can take it on the plane with us. Don't facy the airplane food, or starving for hours.
The flight is at 11.30, US Airways, lands at 19.30 local time. Good old America, in films it's always the American that destroy the world and then save the day, here they are again!
Bring on the LIFE FORCE.
Reza
Reza,
You are so tech savvy, unlike your cousin here!
Thank Goodness for your Blackberry! It saved the day!!
I wanted to make sure Moh read "Life Force Day 1", also, since the message I wrote yesterday by mistake, concerns him, too.
Come visit us after your trip to Life Force, will you please? California's only six hours away from Florida. Since you'll be on our turf anyway, bring Veronica and show her beautiful Northern California. It will be great to see you both.
Bon Voyage to you and Veronica. Have a safe trip and happy landings!
Love,
Nadereh
Dear Veronica and Reza,
We are very happy to hear from you and be sure that we are from here supporting you.
Veronica do you remember the "exploracion" at our home? that was the message:
" use my mind and energy within me to heal myself."
this is just what YOU wrote Reza.
In this new path you will get stronger and wiser. Your braveness and clairvoyance is a blessing and inspires us and surely a lot of people. We are very thankful for that.
You will receive as much energy and help as strength you are showing by taking this decision for new life.
The idea of making a blog is great. We will be visiting it regularly. You have now a fan club in Barcelona!
GO!GO!GO!!!!!
Love, power, light and wisdom....for both.
Marc & Damaris.
So, I'm on board, very comfortable seat. It's going to be a beautiful journey.
I have a deep sensation of joy and clarity, I feel for the first time since I had my news of the cancer that I have a way to heal, it's a great feeling, the feeling of certainty.
Walking through the airport seeing the world go bye is very sureal. How we live our lives in total comfort and ease until something like this happens. It makes us think and awaken to our body and our existance. Our desire to live, and not just to live, but a better fuller life as if we were missing something the first time round is inspiring. It gives you this energy, excitment, a sense of new birth, new opportunity. I look forward to looking back one day and be grateful for what has happened to me. Don't get me wrong, I don't wish for anyone in the world, for any family, father, mother, sister, brother to have to go Through this.
I have to go now as I need to turn my phone off.
Life force
Reza and my new pal Veronica.
I had a lovely evening with you both last night. Veronica thank you for the delicious food and fresh juices. I felt a million dollars today and have been telling all about how good raw food is. I particularly recommend raw chocolate which I insist on you serving next time I come over when you guys are back! Reza has both life force and an angel to guide him. Veronica is both beautiful and caring, she is also the raw food Queen! Lovely to meet you.
Rez I have you're car and will be joy riding it and racing it tonight. I will be returning it smashed up to Moh in the morning!
And by the way Utd won 4.0 at home to Villa. Arsenal were 2.0 down at Bolton and down to ten men and managed to come back and win 3.2, they must have had their green juice this morning! Chelsea play Boro at home tomorrow.
Better go. Life force to all loved ones and energy to Reza and Veronica.
Parker x
May the Life Force be with you ...
Corny, I know. But I couldn't help it!!
All the best,
And lots of e-hugs and e-kisses sent your way.
Here's to the beginning of the rest of your LONG and HEALTHY life!
Love,
Nadereh
Good morning everyone. It's 10am here in West Palm Beach Florida. I love the name, Palm trees are one of my favourite trees, they make me feel as if I'm on holiday.
I feel very tired this morning. Although the journey was very comfortable, it must have drained me a little. My legs are tired, very strange feeling of having constant pins and needles in both legs! I'm sure I'll get over it soon enough.
As usual they stopped me at immigration, Iranian travelling with a Spanish girl!!? What's wrong with that? Luckily for us, and the powers of the wheelchair, they didn't keep us for too long. They were fairly straightforward, when was the last time you went to Iran? And what for? I passed the test with flying colours.
From then on everyone was very nice and helpfull. We arrived at the hotel around 9pm, settled in and checked my blog.
Thanks Parky for taking us to the airport, it was so nice to go there with you instead of a taxi, a nice personal touch. Good football day, match of the day. Must have been good. Keep me posted on the results. Europe this week too?
We're heading to Hippocrates in 1 hour to check in and have our introduction. Can't wait. The weather is not so good, we were hoping for sunshine, but it's a bit overcast. Maybe it will clear later. It's nice and warm, makes it so much easier on my legs. They don't feel so frozen as they did back in London.
If we get a chance this afternoon, we gona head to the apple atore for a bit of retail therapy. I'm gona buy the Mac Air. It's gona be my diary mate. Although Verónica prefers me to write in my note pad, it's much nicer and more natural, I just want an excuse to treat myself to a gadget.
So not much more to report, I feel a little addicted to this blog. I find it therapeutic , healing, letting my thoughts out. I was never one to write a diary, let alone do it on the www. But in the last 2 weeks a lot in me has changed, and I feel this exercise is flushing my thoughts.
I also love reading your thoughts and wishes, so please keep them coming. Small, important or unimportant, silly, corney or far fetched, funny or plain stupid, keep in touch. It's good to talk and be connected.
From Verónica and Reza, we send you positive thoughts and energy. We are both very inspired by our decision to come here, we feel on top of the world, ready to take on the challenge of a life time. The power of self healing. Connecting to Life Force.
Dear Reza,
Thank you for your answer re my question on chemio. I fully understand you.
I read it to Anne. She was really moved. She asks me to convey her warmest regards and wishes.
Congratulation and thank you for the blog. We really enjoy reading about you without pestering you with mails or calls. And I see that the Reza I know and like is as strong as ever.
The book I told you about some time age about fighting cancer with nutrition and food is called Anticancer, by David Servan-Schreiber (a French, educated and living in USA). A great book, it changed my mind on many subjects. I recommend it to everybody.
Unfortunately it is only in French for the time being. American edition planned for September. See http://www.amazon.ca/Anticancer-Pr%C3%A9venir-lutter-David-Servan-Schreiber/dp/222110871X
With my best wishes for a complete recovery
Florent
J & G with you all the way forever.
"How we live our lives in total comfort and ease until something like this happens. It makes us think and awaken to our body and our existance. Our desire to live, and not just to live, but a better fuller life as if we were missing something the first time round is inspiring. "
My prier: May we all have and keep this feeling and though in our hearts and souls for ever, through space, through time, through our minds.
Last year we had this thought very clear and little by little we started to lose it: thank you for reminding it to me.
Your Barcelona's fan club.
Welcome to America!
(Since unfortunately you didn't get a pleasant one at the passport checking, I wanted to wish you a proper one!)
I hope you'll get your energy back soon. I'm sure once you start at Hippocrates, it'll all be good.
Take good care.
Love,
Nadereh
Parker, I didn't actually think you were being serious when you said you were taking Reza's car for a joy ride. Good lucky escape there yesterday with the 1-0 win against Middlesbrough.
Nadereh, I did read your blog. Thank you for your kind thoughts. May be if Jade and I can get through immigration we might come and visit you & Reza in the states.
Reza, how was the retail therapy. I hope the weather has got better.
My man !!!
It's good to read you mate. I love the energy. can you post some pics on your blog, i'd like to see where you are, what it's like over there.... and tings (any birds?)
I'm thinking about turning into a fruit addict too. After seeing the positivity that emanes from you at the moment and the way Parker was talking about it, i'm feeling tempted... Is it legal..?
Go eat some fruits, dude.
Love you
Dyda
Hi Reza
I sent a mail earlier and just leave this short message to see if i'm able to write on your blog
Yoh Rez,
Finally made it to the blog.....been reading the lovely messages from everyone. Payman’s wedding was really good....everyone missed you and sends you their love.
What’s the food like at the Hippocrates??...a lot better than that restaurant I guess!
Glad it is going well over there. Sounds like a wonderful place. Love to V. Jade XXX
reza... jo told me to read your blog.. and it is great to be able to see all you are doing and i really think you have made the right choice.. what a journey, so happy you are doing this.
will keep thinking about you and reading along..
julie xx
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